The suggestion was made that I could benefit greatly from participating in an Ayahuasca ceremony.

The benefit, in my mind, would be never engaging in another shitty relationship.

Ayahuasca is a vine from South America that shamans have been using for centuries to help people see God. Or so that was how it was described to me.

People who have consumed ayahuasca report having spiritual revelations regarding their purpose on earth, the true nature of the universe as well as deep insight into how to be the best person they possibly can.[2] This is viewed by many as a spiritual awakening and what is often described as a rebirth.[3] In addition, it is often reported that individuals feel they gain access to higher spiritual dimensions and make contact with various spiritual or extra-dimensional beings who can act as guides or healers.[4]

Author Don Jose Campos claims that people may experience profound positive life changes subsequent to consuming ayahuasca.[5] Vomiting can follow ayahuasca ingestion; this purging is considered by many shamans and experienced users of ayahuasca to be an essential part of the experience, as it represents the release of negative energy and emotions built up over the course of one’s life.[6] Others report purging in the form of nauseadiarrhea, and hot/cold flashes.

The ingestion of ayahuasca can also cause significant, but temporary, emotional and psychological distress (the “bad trip” experience).[medical citation needed] Long-term negative effects are not known.[7] However, very few deaths due to participation in the consumption of ayahuasca have been reported.[8][9][10] The deaths may be due to preexisting heart conditions, as ayahuasca may increase pulse rates and blood pressure, or interaction with other medicines taken, such as antidepressants, and in some cases possibly a result of the addition of toé in the brew.[11][12]

Let the transformation begin!

I am ready to turn into a Queen.

Fuck this pauper shit.

Is it a bad idea to buy a vibrator off of Amazon?

I had a dream last night about Ayahuasca. I was with some guy. He really wanted me to want to be with him. But I just couldn’t. I really wanted to drink. I started sobbing telling him that this coil, this steel coil that was wound so tight inside of me was killing me and all I wanted to do was relax and I couldn’t. I thought a glass of wine would help. It always did before.

That was when I remembered Ayahuasca.

It was telling me to wait. Wait and see.

I woke up.

I couldn’t go back to sleep.

It is now 5:30 in the morning and I am about to meditate.

I think the vine is calling me.

I don’t know what this new journey will bring, but I am super curious and I think, ready.

The chrysalis is forming around me.

The transformation has already begun.

I am the miracle.


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