My Soon-to-be-Ex-Husband had an enormous financial discussion with me today where he decided to drop two Hiroshima-sized bombs; he wants to separate our finances and get a divorce, asap.
I knew the divorce was coming; I just didn’t know it was barreling down on me like a landslide.
I thought I had more time to get my financial shit in order. I just started my own business. Holy fuck. What am I going to do???
I can’t stop crying.
God, what would you have me do?
Questions I have:
Should I get my tubes tied or go on birth control for my acne?
Should I have sex with the two guys from Tinder? (Highland Park has me all riled up about this fantasy and since he is not acting on it presently, should I do it alone? I am scared. I want it to be with someone I know, at least, one of them)
Should I try drinking minimally and socially? (after 11 years of sobriety)
Should I stop seeing Highland Park?
Things I know I can and will do starting right now:
Stop touching my face.
Stop eating dairy.
Stop worrying about everything
I have more than I need.
I am completely taken care of.
I am not being abandoned.
I have support all around me.
I am not alone.